Honestly, I have no idea how to express what all is going on in my head and in my heart right now. I have avoided writing “real” posts the past couple of weeks because quite honestly, I don’t want to come off negative and angry and hurt. I have avoided blogging by catching up on all of your lives and that has served as a very good distraction I must say.
I have done other things. I have been busy working. Let’s just say I have really been earning my money lately, it has been tough. I have gone for long walks and loved on my doggies and my Hubby and hung out with my fabulous family and friends. I have cleaned my house, and organized everything, and that makes me feel productive and free.
Still there is drama. There is drama that won’t go away.
First of all, I am a no drama type of girl. If I were to get a tattoo it would most likely be the words “no drama” in bold, bright letters tattooed right across my forehead. I choose to remove myself from people and events that stir up unnecessary issues. I don’t work or live well in it and I don’t tolerate it. Life is too short to get caught up in the “he said, she said” ridiculous behavior that should have been squashed with a very specific life lesson in Kindergarten. It seems that a disturbing amount of people missed that lesson and seem to thrive on the constant need to keep things stirred up in their life. I for one do not understand that and I never will. I refuse. I will remove myself from a relationship or a situation before I let you drag me down into that kind of scenario. Hence, my last three jobs. Enough said.
All that being said, someone I love has been caught up in the most ridiculous situation I have ever experienced. My friend is hurt, in pain, angry, beat-down, and being taken advantage of. I cannot even begin to go into all the details, even though they are valid and important. All I know is that my friend is trying to do something good, something honorable, and something that will change the lives of many, many people for years to come. She is a world-changer, a heroine, and a person whose heart is honorable and giving.
Yet, there is a person who continues to seek and destroy everything she does. I am not talking about a work scenario, or the ”she moved my cheese,” or “she said she won’t play with me” behavior. This is a person who has openly worked to destroy her dreams and her goals, all the while costing her money, time and effort. She is now attempting to take the dream for herself all the while challenging her reputation and her characheter.
And. I. Have. Had. It.
I, myself, know this woman and it has been very hard for me to stand by and not do anything. Quite honestly, my whole group of friends has a very checkered her. She has treated us all badly. She treats everyone she comes into contact with like they are disposable, even her own children. There is no limit to her unethical and immoral behavior. I have been a first-hand witness to the behavior that she exhibits and it is hard for me to believe that such a person actually exists. It really is unlike anything I have ever seen. The stories I could tell you would make you sick, literally sick.
That is where I have been. I hate it when evil succeeds. I refuse to allow people to hurt and hinder those that I love. I just don’t know what to do about it. She may have won a battle, but she will not win the war.
To my friend who is going through such a hard time right now,
I honestly have no words for the amount of hurt and anger I feel for you right now. I only can say that I love you and I support you in all that you do and aspire to be. You are an amazing example to so many around you. You are a strong, confident, independent woman who will change this world with your desire and your passion to help and lift up people. You amaze me with your perseverance, your determination, and your desire to make a difference in the lives of those you come into contact with. You are an amazing inspiration and you deserve only the very best this world can offer you. Keep your head up, fight a good fight, and your dreams will come true. You amaze me everyday and I am so grateful to have you in my life.
We are with you.
I have a few blogging friends to give a shout-out to.
First of all, today was my last day of work (more on that to come) and my beautiful and glorious friend Mrs. Lilac wrote a wonderful post for me. She is an amazing woman and I am going to miss our daily chats. She is one of those people with whom you have an instant connection and we were destined to be friends. I may have to call her three times a day now to compensate. I ugly cried at her house today. Like seriously.
Also, my blogger gal friend E.P. was selected as one of the 20 Something Bloggers 2nd Blog Carnival winners. Since she won’t toot her own horn I will do it for her! Go read her award winning post here and tell her how fabulous she is!